losing myself
Sometimes I feel like shaking you and just asking you to say it.
That you feel nothing for me. That you never have and never will. Just so I could stop wondering that you do or whether or not they're right about you.
And at least I would be able to stop thinking and just start letting go.
I had forgotten what it feels like to be in the background. To be invisible. To be forgotten. And it was because of you. You made me feel like I was needed, remembered.
And loved.
But now that this is happening to us, I'm starting to remember what it's like.
I'm beginning to...
disappear...
again...
That you feel nothing for me. That you never have and never will. Just so I could stop wondering that you do or whether or not they're right about you.
And at least I would be able to stop thinking and just start letting go.
I had forgotten what it feels like to be in the background. To be invisible. To be forgotten. And it was because of you. You made me feel like I was needed, remembered.
And loved.
But now that this is happening to us, I'm starting to remember what it's like.
I'm beginning to...
disappear...
again...