Halatang Sawi

How do you tell someone you love them? That you don't think you can last one day without seeing their face? That even just the thought of them makes you smile? Or even just knowing that you're going to see them is enought to get you through anything? That they are the first thing you think about when you wake up in the morning and the last thing before you go to sleep? How?

For the first time since I realized how I felt about you, I let myself imagine what it would be like if you felt the same way... What it would be like if we were together.. I imagined us in lying on the grass and looking at the stars... Watching a dvd with our friends, with them howling in the background because we wouldn't stop holding hands... Sitting next to each other, just talking, your arm around my shoulders... All these thoughts in my head... Then I felt the tears fall... And I hear myself say, "Why think about things that will NEVER EVER happen?"

Pag wala ka, kulang... Sobra. Kulang ang araw, walang saysay. Ngayon ko lang talagang naramdaman. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman na takot akong mawala ka sa buhay ko. Kahit sandali...